"With my whole heart have I sought thee: O let me not wander from thy commandments." ~Psalm 119:10

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Trusting God

Trusting in the Lord is an incredibly important aspect of our Christian lives. I have been learning this more and more every day. Sometimes the things God asks me to do are incredibly difficult. Not so much physically, but mentally. Right now He has me staying at home and being a help to my family. That is my main task at the moment. It is so easy to begin thinking that I am really doing nothing. But this is what God has asked me to do for the time being, and I need to simply trust and obey.
In reality, what the Lord has asked me to do is a huge undertaking for me. I am the type of person who goes insane if I don't have something going on every moment of every day. I relish challenges, and the more energy I use up each day, the happier I am. The last thing I ever wanted to do was spend my single years after graduation at home doing what most of the world would consider a waste of time. I believe that is why the Lord has asked me to do just this.
He wants us to grow in our faith continually. We grow the most when we are asked to do difficult things. For me, this is DIFFICULT. The most difficult thing He ever could have asked me to do. It would have been easier if he asked me to go to some 3rd world country as a missionary. But He didn't, He asked me to do what I'm doing, and it is absolutely the best thing for me!
I know that now. It is still very difficult to continue trusting in the Lord at times, but I know that if He hadn't told me to do what I'm doing, I would have had to learn all that he's taught me the past two years, after I got married and had a family of my own. It would have been MUCH more difficult to learn then. So now I can see at least part of His plan for what He has me doing right now.
As long as I continue to pursue the Lord every day, and trust and obey no matter what, I am completely filled with His joy every moment of every day! Once I began learning this, He has actually been giving me other things to do as well, other than staying at home. I am now able to help my handicapped aunt once-per-week, and help out a young mom from our church once-a-week. I absolutely love it! It is the highlight of my week. The fact that the Lord has allowed me to do these things every week reminds me that I really can trust in the Him no matter what He asks me to do.
"Trust and obey, for there's no other way to be happy in Jesus, but to trust and obey."
"God works ALL things together for good to them that love Him, to them who are the called according to His purpose."